How I feel today, how i felt yesterday, how i'll probably be feeling tomorrow...

Sometimes I just want to walk into the ocean, so far it would just swallow me up- but it spits you out like your NOTHING, no one.

I've tried, trust me I've tried but it never works, nothing EVER works, he just wont let me leave this wretched place.

GOD. Someone told me it is HIM who decides our fates. Then its him who wont let me leave! This same person told me that GOD is the BLOOD of LIFE! well do you know what...

I sleep in blood without security! I am hungry and desire NO ONE AT ALL! Death is hell and I do NOT desire LOVE.

If love is to be desired then is it a desire I wish to be loved? If not, the when might I ask do I wish to desire love? what does the Future hold? And is there even REAL LOVE?

I cannot speak, nor do I dare to express daily how I sincerely feel. For those that take my words are those that have some need.

Though there is no IMPORTANCE in my words I will not express a desire for ANYTHING that will either EXPIRE or make me feel WANTED. I cannot trespass on that which not meant laid.

My hands stained by LOVE in the past. I have meaning, but there is none true, is there PURPOSE?

FOR WHAT PURPOSE DO I HAVE TO BREATH? WHAT PURPOSE DO I HAVE TO BREATH?

SOMEONE TELL ME!!!!

I cannot wash the blood of the PAST from my hands. Dare I not forget the lessons of yesterday. To seek the KNOWLEDGE of tomorrow.

Lest my mind be filled with SORROW. I cannot bare the PAIN and SORROW of my heart.

THERE IS NO REAL LOVE FOR ME!